Sunday, October 19, 2008



As it seems like a decade and this current address and webbie was dedicated to the very special love one.

Had great fun today, i love Sweets family. Never felt so valued and so appreciated. The sincerity can be verified from those honest stares, those heartwarming glance, those thoughful invitation to eat, the feeling of being loved. Just like those truly appreciated love i received from Sweets.

We made our way down to Orchard Hotel today to get Sweet's uni registration done. Silly Sweet was as thoughtful as usual to hail a cab instead on saving on the transport fees in order not to get me drench in the rain. While at Orchard Hotel, i try to make myself useful by suggesting question Sweets could consult from the assistants there. I could tell he was a always-on-the-go person, honest and down-to-earth. The question he has shows how he was prepared for his future, and this in turns gives me the security i never thought i could feel.

Sweet was always putting me before himself. I had been immersing myself into this world that was slightly more wonderful than a fairy land. The setback now had only been those time when he accidentely blurt out his real feelings. Though according to him he is enjoying himself "sacrificing" himself and "sufferring" for me. Deep down inside anyone will realise such "enjoyment" are temporarily. In no time as a relationship tks another step, things will take a wrong turn and he might in turn regret all these sacrification he takes or all those sufferring he has been undergoing. I dun belive in one gaining while another suffering. i was us to enjoy and suffer together Sweets.

For you i change this blog address which has never change since i first started blogging back in 2003. i wan us as a whole new relationship, i wan it just btw u and me. I;ve learnt things do not need others' acknowledgement. In you i see that light that had never shone on me.

All in all, i am more than glad he chose me. The journey ahead is gonna be tough, i wanna undergo this transformation now that prepares me to commit in this relationship cos i swear to God he is the first guy i finally wanted and decided i wanna spend my life with.

Such a irony i dated the Man for 2 whole years, and 5 years ago we tried dating for 3 months, and all this time i had never ever let my mind wonder off to our future. Dad had preach into me how to keep a relationship strong, how i shud give in when the Man's dad doubted my intention in the relationship. I had always question myself when i hear Cuz talking abt her future with Squidhead.

i can feel it now, how your mind wander into the bright future when u are assured of your spouse. It such a wonderfully light feeling to let ur mind go astray, imagining those future 2 person can share. Sometimes i will reminise abt those awkward moments we had, those clumsy things we do, and some "secrets" we share.

unlike any other times, this time i wanna hold his hand, stronger, and work double hard to keep him around me.

=P

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