RodKris

Those squabble down late in the night..
those words that irritates me as much as urself.
we dun click on character, its already be identified.

those caress of ur tummy as it gets firmer and firmer
show ur concern and worries that makes you oh so thinner
those kisses on forehead that indicate all will be fine.
makes me wonder sometimes why u have tat magic in you

When we dun click, we squabble and fight
my tears u cant handle, u surrender and sigh
"a women tear should not be show to others"
yet i cannot control those sorrow, of dating another

----- unfufiled feelings--------

another tiny squabble.. i wonder how long it can last
already things seems shaky and so not meant to be
but both of us hadn;t tot of giving up.
my feelings for you only grow stronger day by day.


B is away, booked in his 9 roommates bunk bed, finally decide to let his mind rest at ease and enter dreamland. Our conversation today din turn out well, but it din matter cos it just doesn't.

Mum and Dad and Kristi drop me a surprise visit today, it's amazing how old people can plan such surprise, of course i was shock yet had a tingle of excitement, its like a surprise i only get in 19 years. Told them the gift B wanted to get for our family for Autumn Festival, they were touched yet lecture me for making him spend the money, com'on, it was him who initiate good mooncakes..

B wanted to cook Bak-ku-teh too on friday. Then he could bring some home for his dad and leave the rest for my family. he wanted to fried some other stuff but fried is an illegal action at my home. That sentence i warn him makes him offended, so the session was ended with some dissatisfaction.

Nevertheless, i was reprimanded for bloggin- as usual. Apparantly i got so engross over updating my blog i din call him in time, resulting in that fool falling asleep.. he was unhappy the next day, but it simply makes me smile, to know that he was ultimately just concern about me. i told him bloggin was my only arm of support, a spirit that keeps me going, like the tagboard where people tells me its ok that we quarrel, its ok that things goes wrong and how well he treats me.. it makes me motivated to carry on. But B disagree, saying the blog only makes me fly. He rather i not know how well things are btw us, sounds contradicting i know.. so what happens in the end? As usual, another round of squabbles..

we squabbles, never gets tired of it, gets irritated all the times, but he stil cares.

sometimes dating an army guy is a real torture.
you have to bear with the pain of suffering alone, not updating ur happenings till its postpone till he is free to listen to you.
you have to walk that extra mile to do his favour as well as urs.
Things only happen to you, he dun update u much, cos NS is forver NS, what more happening do u expect?

yet, it can be sweet at times, provided the army guy KEEP IN MIND THAT THEIR SWEETHEART IS AN ADMIRABLE LADY COS SHE IS AMONG OTHER MILLION GIRLS THAT CHOOSE YOU OVER HER FREEDOM TO DATE.
that also means that her dating schedule is fixed and HIGHLY RESTRICTED..

i admire girls who started their relationship with their bf only when he enters the NS cos she is brave enough to bear the consequence, of being left alone, of him not being around when u need him most. Of not getting his consolation when u wanna hear his motivation. These gals are like heroines, willing to be the quiet angel behind these men's back, supporting them, giving them countless confirmation that she is not cheating on him. NS guys can be SO INSENSITIVES, which is why i am taking forever to finalise things with B.

i am just not so brave.. =(